Finally after the 2 week wait last week, I’m typing this out and with mother’s day that went by over the weekend, I guess it isn’t our time yet. Somehow, it was an unspoken thing between me and my husband but both of us felt it when woke up that morning after my dad called to confirm our plans for the day. We just looked at each other, he hugged me and I cried for a while.Who knows what HE has in store for both of us. We can only hope and pray.
After the last FET that did not happen, I waited for another cycle as instructed by Dr. Sadhana. We were left with 4 more embryos. Looking at how they did not survive the 5 day blastocyst the last time round, they placed me on standby after checking that my uterine lining was good. This time it was a 8.9mm and true enough, we were called up on Saturday morning on 11.04.15. Dr. Sadhana was not around to manage the embryo insertion. We had another gynae to do it. They managed to salvage 2 out of the 4 embryos and inserted them in. One was a Grade 3 and another was a Grade 4.
Both of us went about our daily lives and of course, like the last time, I was so tempted to try the test kit. The 2 week-wait was agonizing! So came the day of the blood test on 27.04.15. Somehow the husband and I didn’t have a good feeling about it. After the blood test, we went off for a pit-stop to the Vans sale @ Wisma Gulap. While waiting for him to have a puff or 2 before going for the sale, I received a call from KKH. Just after she told me that it was negative, I just bawled! The husband pulled me close and i just cried my heart out. Funny how I was all strong and telling him how I’d be ok…. but after the news, I just broke down. I wanted so much for the nurse to just call back and somehow, they made a mistake or accidentally switched my results. But I know it is what it is.
Don’t get me wrong… you can still talk to me about babies, pregnancy and so on. I’m ok and I will be ok. I am elated for people around me getting pregnant and giving birth and I wish them all the best in their journey, for I know that each couple have their own trials and tribulations to becoming a parent. I enjoy reading and hearing about other bloggers/friends’ pregnancy journey coz it gives me an insight on what I can expect or need to expect when the time comes. 🙂